what a long strange trip it is

so such a lot has happened since i last wrote. both in my personal life and in the world life.

to recap my personal life, my daugher and her wonderful husband were here visiting, i had a nice brief ttalk with my x and my grandson hit a grandslam. there was much more to it of course, but those are the biggies.

in the world, oh my oh my oh my. the church slayings, the bruhaha over the confederate flag, the boston bomber sentencing and apology, the supreme court upholding healthcare. what a lot of stuff that boggles the mind. and the heart.

so you all know by now how i feel about everything. i think the slayings heinous, racism insidious, the confederate flag needed to come down before it was put up, the boston bomber may be sincere, but the ship has sailed. and my governor is a grownman sized toddler pouting over the fact that people will be able to keep their healthcare.

it occurs to me that we all spend our days on one of two things. trying to figure out life or trying to figure out death.

you'd think maybe if you were to read my fb posts of late that i was mostly pondering over the slayings and the confederate flag thing. but as so often is the case, what i'm talking about isn't really mostly what i'm thinking about.

i'm thinking about so many other things really. and it's all tied up with something that i just still haven't found a way to articulate. even while i feel it most sincerely.


''the story of life is quicker than the blink of an eye. the story of love is hello, goodbye." Jimi Hendrix

Outstanding in my field

I think one of the most stupid and untrue things in the word is the notion that you can forgive something but still keep your distance from the person you forgive. Because I really think that if you truly forgive them, you will allow them the same place back in your life. And if you don't, you haven't really forgiven them. Here's the thing though. I do not think it's really necessary to forgive everyone. Sometimes I think it's just ok that you don't forgive, so long as you don't become vengeful or anything.

But returning back to actually forgiving people- here is a Rumi quote that I found in a book i was reading that I think describes forgiveness to a T: "Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and right doing there is a field. I'll meet you there."