my last trip to tulsa

"i've been working on this palm tree for 87 years."

i had a horrible time tonight. omg- i was hit on- beyond hit on, tonight. apparently, when i get out there, i'm quite something. everyone wants this. apparently. i am. not. trying to be be vane. but damn. i was apparently the best thing these people had ever seen. (-:

which makes me wonder where they've been. under rocks. or out on the town trying out their lines. their very lame lines. with limited success. or great success. who the hell knows?

and the person that appealed to me most. well, he was the one who seemed the most. uncomfortable. and had no line.

"there was an indian in the corner- trying on my my clothes."


so we hit it off. this misfit and i. you could of figured. that.

phone numbers were exchanged.

"the coroner was friendly, i liked him quite a lot. if i hadn't of been a women, i guess i'd never have been caught."


so here's the thing- i'm not at all sure about this. but you know. he had engineer eyes. you know. the bright shining ones. that speak of intelligence. and observation. and something that is back there. somewhere.

that made me question what exactly he was doing there. or here.

"i was chopping down a palm tree. a friend dropped by to ask. if i would feel less lonely if he helped me swing the axe?"

" i said, "no, it's not a case of being lonely we have here. i've been working on this palm tree for 87 years."

and well, i don't know about this. i really don't.
but it's the closest thing to "i'm interested in this." that i've felt in years. and years.

and years.

"she got down on my knees. said, "let's get on with this thing. well, i used to be a folk singer, keeping managers alive, when you saw me on a corner and told me i was jive."

"well, i woke up in the morning. with an arrow through my nose."

"well, i used to be asleep you know. with blankets on my bed. i stayed there for awhile, til they discovered i was dead....."

"they gave me back my house and car. and nothing more was said."

"i chopped down the palm tree. and it landed on his back..."