don't you ever tell me that i don't know what i'm talking about.
because i do. i DO. I DO.
is there anything that is more gratifying than finding out you were right all damn along?
maybe if people would listen to you in the first place. that might be even more gratifying.
but being proven right eventually is pretty darn sweet.
sadly, it's tempting to say, "I TOLD YOU SO!" but i refrain as best i can. because that isn't nice.
it's not really kind at all.
but, deep down inside, being proven right when everyone thought you were wrong, feels pretty good. and because people spent all that time and energy doubting you and making you feel bad about yourself or like you were stupid- humanly- you do sort of want to rub it in. you do.
thank goodness my better nature eventually prevails though. but for right now, in secret here- i just want to gloat.
i'm promise i'll stop though as soon as i close this page.
Friday, February 13, 2015
Tuesday, February 10, 2015
ah, vanity
i was on tv this week. yeah. i was. i was interviewed regarding a local issue. and they used a small portion of the interview in the context of telling a story. and i did well. really. i sounded pretty darn articulate, actually. which i don't believe i very often sound when i'm speaking.
the tv lady even complimented me afterwards. she said i was quite knowledgable and seemed pretty at ease in front of the camera. so i felt pretty good.
until i watched the clip. i did think i sounded ok. as i said, articulate even. but then there's vanity. i looked SO OLD on camera. so very very very OLD. i had no idea i was walking around looking so damn old. i guess i don't look in the mirror enough or something.
now i did think my hair looked ok. not too long and not too short. good color (which is natural these days, by the way.) but my face. oh my heavens- crinkly eyes and forehead creases, and my neck. yech. and my skin tone. arggg. i looked 106.
but what ya gonna do? you get older, and you're going to look old, i guess. i don't believe in plastic surgery for cosmetic purposes, and i don't like wearing much make-up, and i really can't quit laughing so that my eyes won't crinkle or quit worrying, so my forehead won't crease. and my neck? well, my neck attaches my head to my body and it's got that enlarged, messed up thyroid thing going. so i can't really do all that much about my neck either.
so i guess i'll have to learn to live with looking this old. my grandson told me not long ago that i looked like i had about 25 good years left in me, after all. so i'll have to learn. but i sure don't like it. not one bit.
especially since it's likely only going to get worse.
the tv lady even complimented me afterwards. she said i was quite knowledgable and seemed pretty at ease in front of the camera. so i felt pretty good.
until i watched the clip. i did think i sounded ok. as i said, articulate even. but then there's vanity. i looked SO OLD on camera. so very very very OLD. i had no idea i was walking around looking so damn old. i guess i don't look in the mirror enough or something.
now i did think my hair looked ok. not too long and not too short. good color (which is natural these days, by the way.) but my face. oh my heavens- crinkly eyes and forehead creases, and my neck. yech. and my skin tone. arggg. i looked 106.
but what ya gonna do? you get older, and you're going to look old, i guess. i don't believe in plastic surgery for cosmetic purposes, and i don't like wearing much make-up, and i really can't quit laughing so that my eyes won't crinkle or quit worrying, so my forehead won't crease. and my neck? well, my neck attaches my head to my body and it's got that enlarged, messed up thyroid thing going. so i can't really do all that much about my neck either.
so i guess i'll have to learn to live with looking this old. my grandson told me not long ago that i looked like i had about 25 good years left in me, after all. so i'll have to learn. but i sure don't like it. not one bit.
especially since it's likely only going to get worse.
Tuesday, February 3, 2015
today's pondering mind
"Every man is a piece of the continent, A part of the main.."
so, i heard a snippet of a radio program today about how some people want sealed adoptions unsealed. i'm not sure whether they were talking about just my state or if this is everywhere, but apparently there are a whole bunch of years of sealed adoptions that can't be unsealed unless they pass a new law.
the people being interviewed were so against these adoptions staying sealed, it was grating to me. and i guess i can see if you need some kind of health information, but you'd think there'd be a way to give a person that without divulging the identity of a birth parent.
i guess i just don't get it. i'm not adopted, of course. and i've never had a child who i put up for adoption. so i guess i'd be considered a neutral party. either that or someone who has no right to an opinion. probably the latter. but my opinion is this- the records should remain sealed as to identity unless the parent wants them unsealed so that they can be found if an adopted person is seeking.
one of my very best friends is adopted. maybe my most well-adjusted friend in the world. and she has never ever had the urge to look up her birth parents. true, she won the lottery with her adoptive parents, but she really just feels that there's no point in knowing. and she doesn't care. she has everything she needs to be happy in her life without that. i've never asked her how she'd feel if someday her birth mother came looking for her. i should. i'd be curious to know. i don't think she'd be that receptive though. but i don't know. i should ask her.
i know we're all connected in this world. but that doesn't mean we have to know everything about everyone, even ourselves, i think.
maybe, i think it's only important to know things if not knowing those things affects you somehow. otherwise i think you should leave it alone. and i just don't see how knowing whose body you came out of is all that important. who takes care of you is.
so, i heard a snippet of a radio program today about how some people want sealed adoptions unsealed. i'm not sure whether they were talking about just my state or if this is everywhere, but apparently there are a whole bunch of years of sealed adoptions that can't be unsealed unless they pass a new law.
the people being interviewed were so against these adoptions staying sealed, it was grating to me. and i guess i can see if you need some kind of health information, but you'd think there'd be a way to give a person that without divulging the identity of a birth parent.
i guess i just don't get it. i'm not adopted, of course. and i've never had a child who i put up for adoption. so i guess i'd be considered a neutral party. either that or someone who has no right to an opinion. probably the latter. but my opinion is this- the records should remain sealed as to identity unless the parent wants them unsealed so that they can be found if an adopted person is seeking.
one of my very best friends is adopted. maybe my most well-adjusted friend in the world. and she has never ever had the urge to look up her birth parents. true, she won the lottery with her adoptive parents, but she really just feels that there's no point in knowing. and she doesn't care. she has everything she needs to be happy in her life without that. i've never asked her how she'd feel if someday her birth mother came looking for her. i should. i'd be curious to know. i don't think she'd be that receptive though. but i don't know. i should ask her.
i know we're all connected in this world. but that doesn't mean we have to know everything about everyone, even ourselves, i think.
maybe, i think it's only important to know things if not knowing those things affects you somehow. otherwise i think you should leave it alone. and i just don't see how knowing whose body you came out of is all that important. who takes care of you is.
Sunday, February 1, 2015
things that suck
well, that sucked, didn't it? the end to the superbowl that is.
i do so hate the patriots.
let's just list all the other things that have sucked lately.
the attack on public education by my state's governor and legislature.
tests that punish 3rd graders.
blizzards that aren't.
people who don't deserve good fortune having it.
people who deserve good fortune and don't get it.
when children die young.
when people are mean.
when people are indifferent.
when people aren't honest.
ok. so that's enough of that. talking about sucky things.
let's talk about something else.
whatever you want...
i do so hate the patriots.
let's just list all the other things that have sucked lately.
the attack on public education by my state's governor and legislature.
tests that punish 3rd graders.
blizzards that aren't.
people who don't deserve good fortune having it.
people who deserve good fortune and don't get it.
when children die young.
when people are mean.
when people are indifferent.
when people aren't honest.
ok. so that's enough of that. talking about sucky things.
let's talk about something else.
whatever you want...
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