a perfect me.

geez! i would like to say to myself "quit your whining xxxxx!"

upon re-reading the last post.

i do whine sometimes. i shouldn't. no one likes a whiner. in truth, i don't really either.

anyway, there actually are some other faults that i have that i would change if it were possible.

i would be more outgoing. i can force myself to be, i guess. but i'd like to be more outgoing without it being painful.

i would be quicker on my feet in an argument. i hate being a slow thinker.

i would be funnier. not that i'm never funny. but i'd like to be funnier, more often.

i would have a better memory. not for the icky things i don't want to remember. but for important things.

i would like to not be quite so lazy. that's a weird thing with me. i think because for so long i never had a single free moment to myself, where i wasn't crushingly exhausted and where at the very least some worry wasn't needling me- i actually enjoy doing absolutely nothing at all now. it has turned me into a sloth at times.

so more positive, more outgoing, smarter, funnier, and less lazy.

oh and i'd really like to be beautiful, charming, happy, and kind too.

then i'd be perfect. and you would like me. (-: