because i'm happy

so in the last two weeks, i've been accused. of being happy.

and well, i just don't know how i feel about that.

ha. because well, i really wouldn't self-identify as happy.

i will say though- that i'm much happier than i once was.

and i will say that i know why i'm happier. because i like being only semi-employed. because i like living here in the bigger city over the small town that felt like death to me. because i feel that my children are both in good places in their lives. because i don't have worries on my mind 24/7. because while i'm teetering on the edge of poverty, i have enough.

so can i say that i'm as happy as i've ever been? no, i once was happier. but i can say that i am happier than i was for awhile.

so i guess it's all relative. but it's all a matter of perception too, i guess. apparently, however i feel inside, i appear to others as being a happy person.

somebody should clap their hands, i guess.