Why?

Why haven't I posted? Because I'm attempting to follow the old adage " if you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all.". It's a good adage. It really is.

But my lack of post can't be entirely explained by this because, well I do have good and nice things to say. I really do. Wonderful things really. About my trip, about my beautiful and accomplished daughter, about the things I am working on. So it's not really true that I have nothing nice to say. Just the problem is that these nice things keep being crowded out by some things that are upsetting me and worrying me.

But I don't dare speak of them here in this public place. The only thing I will say though is what I am feeling. And that is that I'm sad and I feel wronged and I feel helpless and I feel hopeless and I feel angry and I feel discouraged. I'm just upset.

And I've got people calling me up on the phone and offering me advice. And sympathy. And encouragement. And that's all good. These things are the life preservers, I guess. That keep a person afloat. Because even if you can't bring yourself to believe or do any of what is suggested, the prevailing feeling is that they at least care. Somebody cares.

So whatever. I guess I just try to hold together. Vent a little, sticking to my feelings only. Until I can shake off the hurt a bit. And hopefully in a spot of time, i can get to a better place and I can post about the nice things, the good things, and the wonderful things.

Until then...