no conclusion was reached

today i had discussed a situation with a co-worker and i threw out some thoughts about the situation and what could be done. but i told her that i had not, as yet, discussed it all with our boss.

and so afterwards, she went in to our boss and shared what i had said. the boss responded and seemed to lean towards what i was saying, but also didn't fully decide on it. my co-worker emailed me and concluded with "no conclusion was reached..."

i wrote her back and said that when i die, that is what i'd like put on my gravestone. "no conclusion was reached..."

because don't you think that's perfect for me? not only am i always thinking and re-thinking things, but for the most part, my life seems to have played itself out that way. i mean, now i'm a renter and not a home owner anymore. there was, and is not likely to be a "happily ever after" for me in a relationship. i have part time employment and to afford life and such, i likely will, until i die.

i seem to be retreating backwards or something. but there is really no aspect that is summing itself up into neat tidy conclusion. nothing's really concluding itself. and everything seems temporary.
and just hanging there.

"no conclusion was reached...." that's my life. seemingly.