it's not my birthday

but my family was here this weekend, and i don't intend to be with them on my birthday, so we celebrated this weekend. they took me out to dinner. and my grandson bought me (with his own money) a gift card to steak and shake. score. i love the steak and shake.

and my mother gave me a fireplace set for my fireplace. which was a very welcome gift. as i have this fireplace here that i really enjoy, but i've never had the "tools."

and so now that they are all gone, i've fired up a duralog (which my sister in law gave me a case for christmas) and i've got a bowl full of sliced pears, and a glass of wine. and it's not my birthday, and i'm all by myself, but it's nice.

i've decided that i will make my New Year's Eve resolutions this year. i don't usually. i think they are stupid, mostly.

people always want to lose weight, stop smoking, stop being whomever it is that they are. whatever.

but all the same, i'm thinking that i'm not getting any younger, sitting here by myself. and i'm bored with myself. i need to change something or other.

but quite honestly, the things i want to change, i can't. the things i can change, won't make things any better, and don't matter that much to me, so why bother? so it's a little hard to set these goals for myself.

wouldn't it be great to be able to set goals for other people, instead? change the rotten things about them, instead?

something like "you will resolve to quit being an ass this year" or "you will resolve to not be so stubborn" or "you will resolve to listen to others for a change" or "you will resolve to quit doing the things that bug me this year."
"you will quit being so judgmental." "you will reflect, realize you were wrong, and apologize."

yeah. that'd be really cool.

i'll wish for that when i blow out my birthday candles this year. but it's not my birthday.
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