ever have that feeling?

ever have that feeling that you dodged a bullet? well tonight, in a way, i did. literally.

i was scheduled to work an intake down at one of our centers. and i wasn't really very happy about it because i didn't want to go back to work until next week. i was kind of mad at myself because earlier in the year, i'd actually scheduled it myself. so i didn't feel like i could ask to change it. so i was quite glad when a week or so before christmas, the director of the center asked to reschedule it to next week.

and so yeah, i was really happy to not have to go down there to work tonight. but really happy turned to "wow" when one of my coworkers texted me to tell me that there was a fatal shooting at the center today, right at the time that we were scheduled to start our intake.

so whew for me. but it's very sad. the person who was shot was just a kid. an 18 year old.

then i was told that they would understand if i didn't want to go down there to work anymore, that they'd look for another assignment. and well, you know? i'm not sure if maybe i'll feel differently and more frightened tomorrow, but at the moment i'm not feeling afraid.

i'm just feeling sad. ever have that feeling?