time to lighten up

well then. i've been really serious, the last couple posts. it's time to lighten up.

so, it's the birthday of one of my children. and i love her and admire her so. and daily gain a love and admiration for her new husband. ha. that sounded like she's had many husbands. no, she has not. just the one. but he's a good one. both my children have nice, good spouses. i feel blessed in that way.

second good thing. i got the invite to go to a national conference, and when i protested that just now i couldn't afford it, a great, good person up and offered to pay for my flight. that's cool, huh? although, i WILL pay them back. no more letting people give me things in life. i've learned that's really really a bad bad idea.

and so. some things are good, no?

and i got my weekly dose of my downton abbey soap opera. and my favorite characters, have kissed and made up. ain't that sweet. of course that's not the end of the story and the fight wasn't a stupid one. the wife had been raped, and wouldn't tell her husband because she didn't want him to go kill the rapist. but she also couldn't bear to be with him or even talk to him really. she couldn't pretend, she was so upset. so instead she was treating him coldly, and even a bit cruelly. and he believed she didn't love him anymore. well, he got told, thankfully. by a person she'd confided in. and sworn to secrecy. but because he rather guessed the secret, he got "it" out of the confidant anyway. although she kept the identity of the rapist a secret still. anyway, thankfully, the woman told the truth when he guessed the secret. and then he went and said all the right things and they kissed and cried and made up. whew. but the storyline doesn't end, because you know full well, he's going to find out who the rapist is. and he's going to kill the person, and then he's going to prison. or get the death penalty.

so last night i was talking about what would motivate a person to kill. and well, i suppose that revenge of your wife's rape might be a justifiable motive. it might. until you take into consideration that it will break your wife's heart forever if you wind up swinging from the gallows or subject to a life in prison.

ah. stupid people in love. but i have to tell you, i really like the fervor with which he loves her. even while she treated him cruelly, and he believed that she didn't love him, he would not let it go. and he put up a fight. he didn't just wimp out and say "oh well. it's the way she wants it." that's love, i think. to seek out reasons. and that he was so enraged that someone hurt her, touches me too. even if he's going to be stupid about it. i can hardly blame him. the thoughts we have when someone has hurt someone we love are beyond reason. and beyond, what a person can take sometimes. and whatever happens here, i'm really just glad that they made up. and that he didn't have to go on believing that she didn't love him. that would have been far more horrible.
so anyway, enough of my soap opera.


it's just good that these things keep me amused. and it's time to lighten up a bit. except i think i'll turn out the light now. and go to bed. good night.